My Chart Is a Cry for Help and Also an Explanation

I got my natal chart read recently and now I understand everything wrong with me. This is going to be a deeply unserious post about why I'm like this, with astrology as the framework. If you don't believe in astrology, I respect that. I also don't care. This is for me.

Pisces Sun, Libra Moon, Gemini Rising. If that means nothing to you, let me translate: I'm an emotional sponge who can't pick a restaurant and won't shut up about it. You're welcome for the self-awareness.

Pisces Sun (~20°)

I am, at my core, a feelings person. I will absorb your bad mood from across the room and assume it's my fault. I will cry at a dog food commercial and then be annoyed at myself for crying. I have "main character empathy," which means I can imagine in vivid detail how everyone else in any situation is feeling, and then I will make their feelings my problem.

This explains why I went into a career field where I have to interpret what humans actually mean when they search for things. I'm just doing emotional labor for the algorithm.

Moon in Libra (~18-22°)

The reason I cannot, for the love of god, decide where we're eating dinner. The reason "what do you want to do this weekend" makes me freeze. The reason I see four sides of every two-sided argument and have to weigh all of them before I can have a feeling about it.

Also: I will keep the peace until I cannot, and then I will burn the whole thing down with the precision of a person who's been keeping a tally for six years. Libra moons don't get mad. They build a case.

Gemini Rising (~22-25°)

This is the part where I won't shut up. Hi, welcome to my blog, where I have decided you need to know my opinions on SEO, motherhood, politics, and now astrology. Gemini Rising is why I started this. Gemini Rising is why I'll abandon it in six months and then come back. Gemini Rising is why I have eight hobbies and finish three.

I'm chatty in a way that strangers find charming and partners find exhausting. I contain multitudes. The multitudes are loud.

Mercury in Pisces, retrograde (~3°)

I think in feelings and metaphors and vibes. I will have a strong intuitive sense that something is wrong before I can articulate why, and by the time I can articulate it, the thing has already happened. Then everyone goes "wow how did you know" and I go "I told you, you weren't listening." Mercury retrograde at birth means I process internally first, externally second, which is a polite way of saying I will think about it for a week before I tell you what I think.

Combined with the Pisces sun, my brain operates as a slow-cooker for information. It's all in there. It just needs eight hours and some emotional context before I can serve it to you.

Venus in Aquarius (~3°)

I love weird. I am drawn to weird. I have weird friends, weird hobbies, weird taste in music. I want my partner to be my best friend and also slightly strange. I am uninterested in conventional displays of affection and deeply moved by someone remembering a thing I mentioned once eight months ago.

Also, fiercely independent in love, which means I will love you very much AND I need three days alone every now and then or I will become a problem.

Mars in Libra, retrograde (~13°)

This is the funniest placement to have. Mars is supposed to be aggressive. Mars in Libra is "I'm not mad I'm just disappointed and would like to discuss this in a balanced way." Retrograde, it's "I will not act on my anger for nine months and then send you a 4,000-word email."

I do not pick fights. I prepare cases. There is a difference.

Jupiter in Scorpio, retrograde (~9°)

The placement that explains why I'm drawn to dark, intense, taboo-adjacent topics and why I've watched seventeen serial killer documentaries this year. I expand through investigation. I grow by digging into things polite people don't want to talk about. I am, fundamentally, nosy in a spiritual way.

Saturn in Libra, retrograde (~21°)

Saturn is the "what's hard for you" placement. Mine's in Libra, conjunct Mars. The lesson here is fairness, partnership, and not bottling it up until you explode. Spoiler: I am still working on this. The lesson takes a lifetime. That's how Saturn works. Rude.

Uranus in Sagittarius (~4°) and Neptune in Sagittarius (~26°)

Generational placements, so less personal, but: my whole age cohort came of age believing the future would be different and fairer than what we got handed. Uranus in Sag said "the world will expand and be free." Neptune in Sag said "and meaning will be everywhere." Then we hit 2016 and beyond and went "oh." Anyway.

Pluto in Libra (~26°)

Another generational one. Pluto in Libra means my whole generation is here to transform what relationships, fairness, and partnership look like. We're the generation that's renegotiating marriage, friendship, work relationships, and what we owe each other. No big deal. Just rewriting the social contract while raising toddlers.

The Libra stellium

Four planets in Libra: Moon, Mars, Saturn, Pluto. This is what astrologers call "a lot." It means the Libra themes (fairness, balance, partnership, justice, not being able to pick a restaurant) are turned up to eleven in my life. It also means I will fight for what's right with the polite firmness of a person who has been mentally rehearsing the argument for three weeks.

Current transits (the part where it gets uncomfortable)

Saturn is currently sitting on my Sun. This is, in astrology terms, the universe asking you "are you sure you want to be the person you've been being." It's an identity restructuring transit. It's why nothing's felt right for the past year. It's why I'm changing things. It's why I'm writing this blog again.

Pluto is conjuncting my Venus, which means my values are getting shaken out. What I love, what I want, what I tolerate, all up for renegotiation. Cool. Cool cool cool.

Neptune's hanging out in my 11th house, which is community and networks. Translation: who's actually my people, who's just been around for a while, what do I want my circles to look like going forward. Also being renegotiated. Apparently the universe scheduled all of this for the same year. Thanks.

What I've learned from doing this

Nothing. I learned nothing. I already knew I was like this. The chart just gave me permission to blame the planets instead of myself.

10/10, would consult the cosmos again.